When Your Emotions and Depression Become a RollerCoaster Ride

Depression doesn’t know age, doesn’t know a season…
Mood swings come and go and only the person suffering from it knows how bad can it be. You can feel happy and five minutes later you feel extremely sad, anxious and not wanting to live. Everything bothers you from the sound of your dog barking to the piece of advice that your lovely mother, dad or friend can give you.
Depression is weird, makes you feel incredibly sad for no reason and takes away the will of living.
Some days are worse than others. You might wake up feeling that you are worthless and that life is so meaningless that you rather be dead, than living as a dead person. One can get so sensitive and everything becomes a big deal even brushing your teeth can seem so hard to do. And people just don´t uderstand that we wanna be left alone in our “Little world”, where you cry all day, don´t shower, stuff your face with comfort food or starve all day, where you sleep in daylight and stare at the ceiling at night.
The hardest part is waking up and dealing with everything you gotta do; go to work, college, get dressed, go to the super market, comb your hair, meetings, you name it!!!! EVERY SINGLE CHORE IS SO HARD TO DO as simple as it may seem.
I was bipolar for over three years… and those were the most awfull years of my life. I had suicidal thoughts everyday and living became such a burden that even breathing made me tired.
“Bipolar disorder (also known as manic depression) causes serious shifts in mood, energy, thinking, and behavior–from the highs of mania on one extreme, to the lows of depression on the other. More than just a fleeting good or bad mood, the cycles of bipolar disorder last for days, weeks, or months. And unlike ordinary mood swings, the mood changes of bipolar disorder are so intense that they interfere with your ability to function”. http://helpguide.org/mental/bipolar_disorder_symptoms_treatment.htm

I didn’t wanna take medication so I prayed every single day for God to heal me. And one day I woke up and started feeling better and better. God didn’t use a magic trick to heal. My faith at the time was very weak but I guess He heard my cry….
I still get depressed, especially during “that time of month”, but never as horrible as it was years before. I dont have any suicidal thoughts anymore.
I could say that if JESUS hadn’t taken my hand and guided me through this rollercoaster ride that is called depression, I wouldn’t be here right now.
The symptoms didn’t disapear magically. But everyday became less difficult to wake up. I stopped taking the pills and am no longer bipolar. I would love to listen to your story of depression or pain and be her for you. Feel free to contact me at marielguerreroabreu@gmail.com or anyone helping with this web site Linkup-Now.com if you need someone to be there for you or even just pray with you.